Good news world- my roommate situation worked out. I am trying to be optimistic but I'm also a bit nervous because I don't know the girl who is moving in with me in 2 weeks. I met her through a mutual friend and she just so happened to be looking for a new apartment. Luckily, I'm easy going but on the other hand, I'm not very assertive. I'm sure things will work out. I didn't know my current roomie before living with her either. Just gotta stay positive!!
Next on the agenda for discussing my life...finals are next week and I couldn't be more excited to be done with this semester. I just want to dedicate myself to my job, my family, and my snowboard for the next month. Now if it would only snow...I think this is the longest that this town has ever gone without it.
Now onto my radvent. I have not been keeping up on it but thats okay. As long as I do one each day that I blog this month, I will feel accomplished in it. So here it is...creativity (or my lack thereof).
I do not consider myself to be creative at all. In fact, I believe my lack of creativity to be one of my biggest downfalls because I feel like it limits me. I'm scared that it will limit me as a teacher someday because I won't be able to make things fun enough. It even holds me back now in my martial arts training and job. I am currently a 1st degree black belt and in order to get a 2nd degree you have to make up your own creative form and perform it multiple times to different people. That creative form is the only reason I haven't gone for my next black belt. Pathetic right?
I think a lot of this lack of creativity comes purely from the fear of sharing what I create. Because I was made fu of for so much of my life, I am comfortable observing others and living quietly. For example, this blog...almost no one I know reads it because I don't want anyone I know to have a window into my life or see how I think or what I have to say. Its a challenge I need to overcome it eventually so that I may feel more freedom of myself.
☮♡Nicole
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